Thought from 2 a.m., the hour of unencumbered clarity:
I can experience the effects of this particular fear twice. Once, now — at 2 a.m. when I’m filled with fear of the unknown. Then again, when the actual moment arrives.
So I should decide how I will BE instead of thinking about what to do.
“Doing” is for daytime hours. “Being” is one moment all the time.